Building New Structures in Consciousness

Today Andrew moves on to the 4^th and 5^th Tenets of Evolutionary Enlightenment: The Truth of Impersonality and Care for the Whole.

The opening comment in our discussion group on this subject sets the tone and context for the ensuing meeting. One woman says that we can only really see and appreciate the truth of impersonality from the perspective of the authentic self, from the view of liberated consciousness itself. And this rings so true.

From the point of view of the ego or separate self sense, we can try to grasp the fact that in actuality absolutely everything is impersonal, but since our vantage point is from being separate (i.e. I'm special = personal = the opposite of impersonality), it doesn't really work. And it tends to be like trying to convince yourself that bad tasting medicine is good for you! Because ego essentially is the habit of compulsively personalizing our experience.

            In the discussion group today, what is most striking to me is the fact that there is a definite development from the day before (as there has been every single day - which Andrew later comments on), and from the start we are meeting in an egoless field of consciousness. This is no small feat and I know that by much hard work we are building the structures in consciousness which support and enable this to occur.

I can sense the stability and depth inherent in the intersubjective field between us and this allows us to investigate anything with fearless interest and passion. This is the world of the authentic self and it's a radically different world where the evolution of consciousness (= care for the whole) naturally becomes the prime directive. In this world, we all see impersonality as liberation. Instead of ‘impersonality' having cold or negative life denying connotations, it's liberating, as why would we want to cling onto false notions of trying to make our experience personal and special, with all the mess that produces? Personalizing our experience is what isolates and separates us.

            But then if absolutely everything is impersonal, and there is really only one human experience, one process that is not separate from us, then we are that process.

Now everything is personal - but in a very different sense. I'm responsible for the evolution of the process; it's all up to me. But that ‘me' is a very different ‘me' - it's the deepest and most real part of ourselves, the authentic self. In fact, the awesome ( and I mean that in the true sense of this overused word - after all, I'm English, not Californian!) truth is that the evolution and manifestation of God really does rest on each of our shoulders.

            We discuss all these things in a very sober but fast moving kind of way that's hard to understand if you don't experience it. When you're in an egoless field, there are no barriers to communication - heart to heart, soul to soul. And the implications are that one's words can't be just fine words; they have to carry weight i.e. there has to be follow through.

            We talk about our reaction when Andrew challenged us by questioning whether our revelations would become transformation and change, measurable over time. Did we feel egoic recoil? Did we personalize that recoil? It doesn't matter what feelings we experience, or if there was fear; all that counts is what do we do. Do we care more about the evolution of the whole process (which depends completely on us)?

            This is the last discussion on this retreat but I'll update this retreat blog stream as things happen (e.g. what are we going to do to ensure real transformation in time) since I know that we're only just getting going on the Universe Project!